R.I.P. Michael Jackson

I'm hurt...This rly makes me sad..I LOVE MICHAEL JACKSON! When Remember The Time came out I proposed to him..We were to wed one day..It rly sucks because he was the greatest to ever do it! The best that will ever do it! Nobody's touching MJ!! EVER..He's a legend..His spirit will live on forever..We love u..N don't let the ignorance bother you..Good thing you got away from this cruel, CRUEL world..R.I.P.

Chicken Spaghetti!!

Since I'm gonna be doing my apartment thing again..I feel like I should budget my money more responsibly..So for starters I decided that every Sunday I'll make a meal that I'll eat leftovers for the rest of the week. For some people it might be too hard..But for me..I gotta make it..It's a recession..Can't be choosy!! So one of my favorite meals to make is chicken spaghetti because it's sooo good! I love it..I've already tried this experiment this week and so far I'm loving it!! Yum!! Here's the recipe!

Chicken Breast!! I'm not gonna tell you how much chicken to use because it's your preference! I like a lot of chicken in mine so..I use a pack of chicken breast!
Cream of Mushroom
Cream of Chicken
Rotel or diced tomatoes
Spaghetti
Velveeta
Celery and Onion (Optional)

1. So you first boil your chicken..Add seasonings..(Seasoned Salt, Chicken Seasoning..Whatever you would like to use) At this point you would add your onions and celery if you would like to..Most times I don't! After your chicken is cooked thoroughly, take the chicken out and place on a plate or a cutting board.
2. Break your noodles into 3 different sections instead of in half like regular spaghetti. Drop them into the broth that you made with your chicken. Cook until wiggly but not too soft.
3. In another pot add your cream of mushroom, cream of chicken and velveeta (Half a block). Bring to a slow boil.
4. Break your chicken into small pieces and add to the spaghetti noodles..Add your mixture in next..Mix all together..Add your tomatoes..Voila! Yummy goodness for an entire week! K..I'm done for the night..Jeez I suck..Go to bed! lol

These Would Really Make Me Happy!!

Just a few things from MAC that are on my wishlist!! Eventually I'll have them!! I promise! One day..Lol....So anyway this one---> Is a mineralize blush..N I freakin love it..Because plum tones look really good on brown skin..And yellow tones also look good on my particular skin tone..I think it's REALLY cute!!
The infamous Amber Lights EyeShadow! I love this one too! It really looks good on brown skin..A really nice neutral color!
I'm intrigued by Electric Eel because it's such a pretty shade of blue..U can smoke it out for an evening look..Add another bright color for a more summery look..Ohh the possibilities..;-)
Expensive pink is just the pink I'm looking for..A really light pink without being too sheer..I have a very vibrant and bright pink from HIP..But I want a nice one that's toned down a little..
The MAC 187 brush is like the essential brush to have..But for $42? I may have to start with the Sonia Kashuk verision..(VERRRY good brushes by the way!)

Nothing Means More To Me Than What We Share..

Est. Dec. 11th 2006

I was just inclined to post this after that last one..

Love...So many ppl use ur name in vain..

Sometimes I wonder if people truly love the person they claim they do..I've witnessed some people fall in "love" 2 and 3 times within a 6 month period..Now I'm not knocking anyone that falls in love quickly..It can sometimes be real love..But some things you don't truly think about until later...Remember..Hindsight is 20/20.

1. Would u still be there if he stumbled upon hard times? Struggle with him? Help him? Be there? Or run away until he gets it together?
2. Is it possible for you to forgive? Or is it only possible until you get into the next argument?
3. Are you comfortable to be yourself around him?
4. Do you love yourself FIRST? What do you allow him to get away with? How do you allow him to treat you? Yes all of things matter because there's a thin line between love and infatuation. Or even being comfortable or USED to being with a person that you stick around.
5. Do you accept him for what he is? Not what he has the potential to be? Do you allow him to better himself without you trying to shape and form him into what you THINK he should be?
6. Do you support his dreams? Goals?
7. Would you consider being with him until the end of time?

The list goes on and on and on..Sometimes you have to sit back and think how you TRULY feel about a person. You have to come to terms with and love yourself before you can love another person. When you love yourself you won't settle for less than you deserve and try to "fix" them. You won't stand for abuse whether it be physical or mental.

I for one went the majority of my life not loving myself. As a result I dealt with relationships that I wish I could've skipped past. I wasn't treated right, I was cheated on and it pretty much sucked. But when I took the time and began to get to know myself, grow to love myself..I figured out the type of person that I needed in my life. We're the same, but different. We struggle in different ways. We both have issues. But we'll love each other forever.

If you truly LOVE somebody, no matter what happens..Problems..situations..issues..If you truly love someone..You come back..You work it out..You STICK it out..No matter how much your heart hurts..How much you hurt each other..If you truly love him/her..You'll come back..You'll get back..I love u Lemonhead...Although you won't see this..l:-)

Happy Father's Day..

It's my first father's day without my dad callin me drunk...Somehow I miss it...I love u pops...Watch over me..
On a lighter note..I enjoyed my father's day..I've always been "acting" father to my nephew since my brother has been locked up...He drives me crazy..So inquisitive..hyper...CRAZY!! lol :-)

Here's my child yall :-)

I look such a terrible mess..ah well..bad/so-so/good day for me..

I've been absent..

Man..So much has gone on in my life the past 72 hours..God I need a movie..Or at least a book deal..HEll who knows..But I'm telling you EVERYONE would be tuned in for my family's life story..I guarantee it..It's "The Wire" meets "My Brother and Me" meets "The Corner" meets "Degrassi." Yall just don't understand...Man oh man...Praying is all u can do..

Accept Relationship Advice From You?

Why are people so quick to tell you what they wouldn't put up with in a relationship? "Chile if I were you I wouldn't put up wit that!" SIDENOTE I'm not speaking of my good friends who honestly have my best interest at heart! I'm talkin about the ones who are single, BITTER, jealous and any other adjective you can think of. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the type that will put up with just ANYTHING. You won't cheat on me and get away with it, if you want to cheat just break up with me! I've been cheated on before, and my ex went out of his way to show me that he was sorry and he regretted it. And you know what? I believed him. But the thought of another girl would never leave my mind...I would always think WHY?! What could I have done to keep you with me? What was I missing that she provided for you? And aren't I still missing it? What's different now? It would've never been a healthy relationship because I lacked trust in him, I lacked confidence that he would stay with me. You also won't put your hands on me and you won't come between me and my family or close friends. That's the bottom line. So why do you feel the need to say to me that you wouldn't put up with him going to parties without you? You'll never have a man, if you don't trust him enough to be able to do the right thing when he's alone..Why are you with him?

Reunited and it feels soo goooooood!!

I love him..

I'm HOOOME...Eerr...To grandma's!!

I'm finally done traveling and all those evil things! I've dealt with screaming babies..3 hour layovers..And heavy baggage...But I'm finally in point C!!! I'm so happy...U talkin about somebodyTIRED!!! But the trip was well worth it! Be back later for details...Aaah...TIREd...:-/

Untitled..

Sometimes I just don't know..Why? Not sure..Just watch..I'm goin to bed...It's 4 somethin...Mind's playing tricks on me....Oh em gee...

Random is My Middle Name..

ALLOW ME TO REINTRODUCE MYSELF!!
MY NAME IS NIK...N TO THE I-K.!

So maybe I suck at being Jay-Z..Ah well..:-) Why's the name of my blog "Random is my middle name"? Well...Ask anyone who knows me, that is very VERY true..Sometimes I don't even understand myself! But I think that's the beauty of being human..Not following trends makes me weird...Being honest makes me mean..Being GORGEOUS (hehe) makes me a bitch..Being myself makes me random..Welcome to my world..I live on Mars..lol


My many faces..From left..Sweet..Confused..Crazy..Sneaky..Nervous..Mean..

TO KNOW ME IS TO LOVE ME RIGHT? DO YOU LOVE ME?? DO YOU KNOW ME??

Packing HORROR!!!

Man...I really DESPISE packing..It's the worst thing ever..Wanna know why? I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH ROOM!! I had to condense to come out here to Sunny California..Now I have to condense to go back..I'm sad because I don't like to part with my things!

BUT!! I did make sure to pack a few things!!

..Every article of clothing/shoes I've purchased here
..Every bit of makeup I've bought/brought
..My trimmer..(Eyebrows, legs...OTHER places..(:)
..All my hair products

Y the hell do airlines have to charge you for EACH suitcase? I think we should at least get 2 included with the ugly price in the first place..Then charge the people that get greedy!

So in my carry on I have..

..2 pads..Just because I always do lol
..Tylenol..I'm sure to get a headache if I sit by an overly friendly person
..My camera and HELLA batteries..(I plan to make a video of sorts..)
..My mp3 player..GOTTA HAVE IT..!
..Candy!! (Now&Laters, Jolly Ranchers)
..A book
..My Notebook
..My MINI makeup bag which includes..

Loreal HIP Foundation
Mac Select Sheer Powder
Maybelline Eyeliner
Mac LipStick
Maurice's Lip Gloss
Covergirl LashBlast
HIP duo
One face sponge, Powder brush, Eyeshadow brush

..My wallet
..My charger
..House Shoes

N I'm wearing sweat shorts..Wife beater..Rainboots..Chanel earrings..Jacket..Y rain boots you ask? I'm just a weirdo..Get used to it..Being crazy keeps me sane..Hmm...That should've been my blog title...Pray that my plane lands safely..I love my viewers...I have 189 hits...Talk to me! I don't bite..:-)

The Day is Finally Here..

So...Now that it's happening tomorrow..I have to say that I'm terribly excited to see my LemonHead tomorrow..It's been such a long time..Absence seems to make the heart grow fonder, no matter what you've been through in the past. I can't wait to see him...I miss his smile..His jokes..His kisses on my forehead..His soft lips..His roaming hands..His hot head..His charm..I love him. In times of tragedy..You either get closer or you grow apart..In this case..I'm not sure what happened..Maybe we grew apart..But I believe there's still a chance for us to grow together...I'm not letting 3 years go this easily..;-)

K...So my blog is dull for a while..

i been tryna get it straight for a couple hours..Can't find one worth using..So it'll just be dull until I get settled in one spot..Becuz I need to be packing right now..Plane leaves tomorrow at 2!!

Aaahhh!! Red Lips!!

Soo...I decided to give it a try..RED LIPSTICK!! OMG..! Red lips= [HIT OR MISS] Not sure if I hit or missed though! This was a cheap drug store brand lip stick called Jordana! It was surprisingly pigmented and bright! So in the future I might buy more lipstick from them! It was only a dollar! :-)

[SideNote.] Lol Don't mind my idiot brother...We were being dumb..

I think I'm In looovve...

Sammie...U've been my boo boo since I was 11 or 12...N OMG..Nothin has changed..I f'n love u! I'm not a groupie...But I'll be one for u!! LMAO JK!!!! JK JK...SERIOUSLY!

He's sexy..With a beautiful voice..UNDERRATED!!

His remix to Every Girl...I like his version better!!

http://www.zshare.net/audio/60860077c6ba5647/

His remix to Birthday Sex...I Looove this..Cuz I can relate..N that voice...Ooooh...Chile..

http://www.zshare.net/audio/607334282a8d8c0f/